Maybe it's jealousy? Nah, it's not.

Have you ever felt like you and a friend were closer than ''BFFS'' maybe even sisters? I have. I use to be really close to (lets call her Essie) Essie last year. We would meet at our usually spot every morning and do our homework because we were procrastinators. We hung out 24/7 and told each other everything. I didn't give it much thought at the time, but I think some people blamed me for the cause of Essie's former ''BFF'' (lets call her Kate), Kate. They had a fight, but I thought it was a mis-communication between one another. This year I barely talked to Essie. We had no classes together. We never met in the morning like we use to and now since she has made up with Kate, I feel like I've been pushed aside. Sure..I have new, closer friends now, but i still miss Essie. There was a huge whole between us that was slowly forming without my notice. I tried to make plans with her, but they all ended in failure. I started to give up because i saw no hope and it didn't seem like she was trying that hard to hang out with me either. Within our conversations, I was always the first one to text her, never the opposite. I feel sad because of my replacement. I guess our relationship wasn't that great to begin with? Who knows. I just miss her a lot. Although, since it's a brand new year, I should leave all my worries and such behind and start fresh. It feels good venting my feelings to a small public or maybe no one reads my blogs, but I think I'm going to start doing this more often.

I'm starting to believe what my parents have been trying to tell me all these years. "There's no such thing as 'best friends forever' every single person eventually moves on with their own life and leaves you behind'' :\

New Years Resolution:
1. Take better care of body and skin!
2. Be more open and social with friends
3. Do not stress about small matters (if it's meant to be, It'll happen?)
4. Have a better diet (lay off the noodles and such)
5. Exercise and stick to a sport

Happy New Years<3
Wewwwt 2010 :)